This last week, I had to make a judgement call. It was over a moral and ethical decision. My mind and heart were feeled with fear, sadness, and pain. I was afraid of the past, the present, and the future.  I took a lot of time to pray, meditate, and do yoga last week.  I knew what I had to do and I did it. The stress that my body has gone under, has exacerbated my disease. My body gets to the point every month were the pain is to great and intolerable.  Just about every month I take a trip to the hospital. Do to the stress I went under last week, I can again feel my body breaking down.  I really tried to keep the rsd at bay and tried doing things to releave my stress. To no evail my body is starting to crumble do to the rsd. No matter how supportive and loving my family and friends were last week the stress has broken me down.  The rsd won this round.